The Jig is up. I have been grappling with the idea of either becoming a member of the ‘’stable job’’ community and accepting this full time position at this Wellness Centre that is scheduled to launch in April 2011 in central London, or staying with my own burgeoning (albeit small – boutique, let’s call it) clinic which is, like many start-ups, not as stable. I am sure that many of you have been in this position before, whether it has been in the form of a career change or relationship break up – where one now has to decide which path to take? When you are at the proverbial Fork In the Road, how simple is it really to listen to one’s gut and know, like Really Know in the ‘’my heart is telling me that this is the way because I had a dream last night and I woke up just knowing’’ way of knowing and make the right decision for you at that point in your life?
It’s not that simple. In fact, it’s never really that simple. I do agree that one does have to pay attention to their heart and their gut, the two largest emotional centres of the body, but one also has to create the appropriate connection between them and the head. And I feel that for the majority, it’s either over-thinking and making a decision based on what they feel is logical and is expected of them (the head) or they jump in eyes wide shut without any thought to the consequences (the heart – Me). The highway between those extremes is often closed to traffic and a decision is made that causes a pattern to be repeated in one’s life – either through being too cautious and worrying about how one will look to other people, or not being thoughtful enough and needing someone to bail you out when the fit hits the shan (again…me). Either way, you end up unhappy.
So that was my conundrum – accept this job and give up everything that I had worked so hard to obtain on my own terms, or turn it down and continue to see where things go as they are? Opportunity versus Freedom? But is the stable job really forcing me to give up my independence or would it actually provide me with more options in the end? Is working for myself really as liberating as I made it out to be given that my salary could be amazing one month and panic inducing the next? Is this a test to see how devoted I was to my clinic or is this the Universe’s way of letting me know that my hard work had paid off and I am now being recognized for it?
Well, dear Readers and Clients, here it is. I have accepted the job and I am choosing to see it as an amazing opportunity. I have listened to both my head and my heart and after 8 lists of pros and cons and several conversations with each and every single one of my confidantes and respected colleagues, a month of sleepless nights and a renewed passion for journal-writing, I am going to be embarking on a new and exciting journey. My own clinic will be put on hold indefinitely starting February 1st 2011, but I will be transferring my current clients, if they choose to stay with me, to my new location in Trafalgar Square starting April 2011.
Will keep you updated with details as they arise.
Happy New Year, everyone.